5%

I can not have the one thing I want,
and naturally that fact alone makes me want it even more.

Every night this is getting worse.
It is always in a room full of faces that this sort of thing dawns on me.
That this is the exact feeling when I feel absolutely alone.

That not a single one of these people really knows me.
Or even worse,
the fact that I don't want to get to know a single one of these people.
That is when it hits me, this is where it always hits me.
It takes a lot for someone to sustain my interest.

Most people, well 95% of people, bore me.
Their words, their eyes, the way they move when they stand from a chair.
The way they talk to strangers, the way they talk to their "friends".

People are predictable.
These kind of people that do not interest me.
Not a bit.
They are the kind of people,
that you get to know,
and once you do,
you realize
"I have known this exact person before."
So why waste your time?

haha
Though I find myself always wasting time.